I need to write something…

I have not been lazy about blogging. I have been working many, many hours on the website, on beinghad.com. I want the site to at least be functional and the basics in place when I open the doors. I am not afraid of building it publicly, I am not a big corporation with a team of pros; I am not afraid that people won't think me slick enough. I am just one guy here.

For those of you who have tried to do this sort of thing, I know you understand how difficult it is. There are so many details to worry about and mistakes send you back many files. But I am getting closer. Much closer. I hope to open this week if I can.

Writing about the case again…

One thing though that has been interesting for me is writing abut the case again. I have been going through the old documents, refitting them from the blog format into a simpler, more user friendly interactive format. But the lies are still so vibrant and so simple. I have the gift of a five year perspective now, fresh eyes with a lot of new experience from which to draw. But it is really so simple to see if you look. Or was it simple to see then too? Actually, though there were many, many, many facts which were withheld from me, they really keep you in the dark out there; I did know what they were doing. Maybe this is foolish because I had first hand knowledge of the truth, so of course I could see the lies. But now you can really, really see it for what it was.

And what was it? It wasn't clever or smooth. It was not a really slick war of intellectual thrusts and parries, it was just this stupid, selfish violent idiot being allowed to extort money from me. Why this idiot was allowed to perhaps is the intriguing question. I think I have this answer now. Not like taht makes things any easier.

Bit I think you can really, really see who the big evil players were.

The change of heart…

About Belarus these days I simple do not know. Around the web there are so many people talking about coming to Belarus and making business in Belarus. It is simply as if someone simply told them it was theirs to play with. And they are not respectful or interested in the country or the people or the culture, they are of course interested in taking what they can, as quickly as they can and are oblivious to the consequences to this country.

I read one blogger who specializes in business who was talking about whether Belarusian programmers were any good and whether or not a small firm could be started. Basic facts- The programmers are good but the government gets involved in the businesses and finds ways to control things (i.e., takes the money where it can find it). And then they went on to say whether or not there was a chance of Lukashenka being deposed (Not likely).

Of course it was only business, never friendship. Of course Belarus' arguments to Gazprom and Transneft were also seen as foolishness. The world is not about friendship.

By the way, when exactly did friendship become an evil concept?

The cost of things is going up…

More and more foods have seen a straight up 10% hike. We are all paying for the differences in anticipated things. I had a brief back and forth with mike miller about this when I mentioned that it was an announced figure that the gas itself would cost perhaps a dollar more each month. Mike came back that perhaps a dollar was not such a big deal. And no, it would have been. But spreading the cost across the board simply means charging more for everything, food, clothes, goods, services. Gas. Oil…

And without doing the absolute research, I would say that so far it is looking like maybe $30 to $50 a month increase. Again, you Euro people would say that this is not too bad. But it represents for Belarus about a 10 to 20% increase, and of curse this is inflation. According to the CIA fact book, Belarus already had 10% inflation. I suppose this was true. So let's say that this year, we are having twenty percent inflation. And all so we will look kindly on the Germans when they come to dictate policy.

I remember reading about when the Germans came to Pinsk at the start of World War II. The town fathers greeted them with bread and salt. They of course killed or ghettoized all the Jews in Pinsk, this part of their holy war. So that was half the population dismissed. And then they took over the ruining of the factories…

They were fascists. That's how they refer to them here. Fascists dictate policy based upon strength and not upon friendship. Rule of the Jungle, Darwin and his theory of evolution: The strong survive and the weak fade.

I think that was Billy Holiday. In any case, apparently we have made a new social agreement. I was not aware of agreeing to it personally, but it at least seems that, via the influence of external propaganda, that there has been an agreement that says you are forbidden now to feel any attachment to another human being.

Still snowing….

Been snowing now for a week. It's starting to pile up and it's cold all the time now. It is not a bad cold. It is not Dostoyevsky or Jack London cold. It's a nice cold. I wish I was younger and could enjoy it the way that Egor does, by playing out on the (finally) frozen river with his friends or pelting each other with snow balls. Or even in the simplest revelations of the texture of snow as Anya has right now. I wish I even felt free to just go stay out in it for a while. I should try and find some time today. I mean, it is not like this is Berlin, right? It's only Pinsk. I was supposed to have had a bit more time for life…

More soon…